History is Repeating

Things never change. Its repeating again and again. same thing happens all they way from begin to end. Whenever I relax thinking I am on right way, I fall again to the pit. There is now meaning of relaxing. When I want to get ride of my pathetic feelings and continuously look outside, I fall inside the circle. Where should I go? What should I do? Time's not tough, it's me acting tough now. I know what to do but I forget what I should do.
But time keeps running in its same speed and I am running slow and I am for past one week out of my track. I lost control and my journey has been stopped. I have no clue. I wish things should change as per my plan.